I dont want no cake on my birthday, i want my cake everyday,everyday.
Flo Rida

As expected, Mum made me miserable on my birthday......AGAIN.
it's been 7 years running, the morning was so great, woke up
knowing its Kazi day, and she said "You don't go sailing, You Stay Home Study"
all i wanted to do is go sailing on my birthday, meet my bestfriend and just enjoy racing.
but noooo, stay home study.
even im 16, i still cry. i really could not take the pain of my own mother
doing that to me...oh wait...what mother? I heard my mum died 16 years ago.

The worst part was she opened the door, and called me a crybaby.
I bet you cried when you found out you were pregnant with me bitch.
Your few mins of fun with papa, gave you 16 years of hell.
i didnt regret being a bad-ass in school, i now realise, it was all worth it.
making you SUFFER.

Tijany and Muammar are like your only sons. Kazhirn is some kid who just lives with you right?
Nenek told me everything, what happen 17 years ago.
your own parents think YOU are crazy. I really wished you and papa divorce 5 years ago.
Tijany got a phone, an Mp3, Swensen treat and a bunch of stuff.
when i was
10:i got sent to Baba house, while you and the family go MALAYSIA
11:You went to Bangkok thailand, called the family, and when i wanted to talk to you.
you hung up.
12:You asked me to study at home, while you bring Tijany to swensen to celebrate MY birthday.
13:You didnt even wish me.
14:You didnt come to swensen cause PAPA was there.
15:You accused me of stealing your "bling" and and found out the MAID took it.
16: you ask me stay home study, didnt wish me,Took away my computer and demoralised me.



Ill save space for many more years to come.


yeah anyways, no more com, so im blogging through the school computer.
this would be my last post till...ever.
cause i know im not getting my com back.

SJI concert, was not what i expected. i thought there would be like partying and shit
but, all i see was...crap.
Bianca was nice enough to buy me the ticket, thanks dear.
as i expected, nothing special happened. Im kinda use to this boring birthdays.
never had i had a fun birthday...or will ever in fact.

After Plaza Sin, i understand you shawtys had to rush, but at least say goodbye ah, all of you had a ride home, i had to take the last mrt, and i missed the last bus im suppose to take, i had to walk home.

Well im not mad at yall anymore, Thanks for all the wishes;)
Btw, SMSing me are useless cause i dont have my SIM card.
Thanks:
Afiqah
:FTTTB!I need to talk to you, its a daily need for me, but i guess i cant do that anymore nor do see you during weekends anymore either. I still keep our "special" convo, but i dont think i can veiw them so...yeah, just read my song if you miss me:D
I love my Bantal;)<(i know you hate ;) but you get the idea) Love love.

Bianca
:BEE!!! Thanks for staying by me all he time. you were the only that stick by me, even if the party didnt go well, i alraedy knew this would happen, so its ok:D
thanks for cheering me up yesterday night. I still love you too!

Francesca
: Shawty! you totally busted my Jacket sia! the zip burst open! its damn ex you know! its ok, im sure i can fix it.Thanks for everything:) love you(go talk to him la...seriously...)

Jeremiah
: aye man! thanks for making me laugh through out the day! The concert was awesome because of our sarcastic remarks! mostly from you
(go talk to her la...)

Lesley
YATI! You finally feel alright to hug me! hahaha! thanks for the bday wish.Love you yo! now go make me my dinner maid!

Tessa
Yeah! im your flyboy!! youre my grilz girl! haha! thanks for the bday wish yo! really love it yo!

Victoria
Dora!! Thanks for the wish too! and thanks for not fighting with her that day:D
i have to go now...sorry, i edit this later!
Love you!